It's a beautiful night, but a little strange. I'm on the porch in the back, starry night, perfect temperature. The night is calm. I just got back from a run (well...more like a short run and then 45mins of fast walking.. I really can't do this unless I'm trying to catch a ball or running for my life) and I got lost. I know I just moved to this neighborhood but I still know it pretty well. And I didn't go far, or stray from what I knew, but I got lost. I just stopped, looked around, made a few steps in each direction to see if I would recognize something but I didn't. I went back they way I came (or so I thought...) and still nothing. Ashamedly enough, I had to use my Google maps app on my IPhone to find the way home... I felt so lost! Even following the path it gave me made no sense. I had left from the right, and arrived from the left. It made no sense. I still don't understand what happened.
A friend really close to my heart right now keeps on playing with my head. There are many things he does that I find not right, or just plain strange but yet I still feel pulled towards him. As I'm trying to find my way, I receive a text from him simply saying : Problem. I call him right away to find out what it is and also cause I was gonna call him anyway. I quit my job, cut my hair and thought I wanted to share that it was a great night for strolling in Westmount and these were all great reasons to give him a call. We call each other for the dumbest shit anyway all day long so have 3 subjects, 2 that are worth discussing, well that's just a plan for an awesome phone call. But he doesn't answer... I text: what's wrong? he says it's fine...I say I don't care and that he must call me anyway. He says" It's okay please. I ask where he is. He says "here but i can't text, it's too much." I say I know this which is why he should call me and stop sending mysterious texts and now I won't be able to sleep(again...grrreaattt...) He says don't be but I can't do this ttyl.
Like, wtf does that mean? Great way to make me nervous all night there bucko! Fuckin eh. I think he's one of the reasons for my not sleeping at night...I've got to stop him.
Anyway, today I wanted to go to the beach but Audrey made me drive her to Rawdon where the friends of our roommates go hangout on weekends. 2 hours, lots of traffic and no sun later, we got there. It actually was pretty fun.
Have you ever gotten lost somewhere close to home? Or have a friend that you are constantly aware of or worried about?
Currently listening to Warpaint, Burgundy